Sometimes life just hits you smack in the face without any warnings. Well, that’s how the saying normally goes right? This time it’s my emotions that are running me over. I don’t know how I feel. I feel guilty? Overwhelmed. Grateful. Compassionate but selfish. Most of all, I just want to let go and let myself lose with my emotions amass. But I find I can’t in the confines of my four wall bedroom where it’s safe and private. But once I take my first step out of my apartment, I immediately feel the weight of the air that encompasses my heart. It’s weird how we feel so many things when we can’t really express them.
The kindness of the strangers. The smile the barista gives. The free private space in a public library. I find in the smallest things my happiness moves up. I smile a little brighter. I sit up a little proper. I put my head back a little higher. All is well.